Today is a significant day. It is the 26th anniversary of our departure from our family, friends and home church in So Cal, to begin a “venture of faith” in Metro Washington, DC. The Lord alone knows the many thoughts that I have pondered, the many prayers I have offered, the many confessions I have uttered, the many failures I have admitted and the many ‘hopes’ I have expressed (etc, etc) on the this significant anniversary, over these 26 years. In some ways, my reflections of these many years are those of disappointment (in myself); of expectations unfulfilled; of goals unreached. In other ways, my reflections of these many years are exceedingly, abundantly beyond anything I could have ever asked or imagined.
This past year has been a year of transition, a year of loss, a year of sadness, a year of many changes. At the same time it has been a year of many, many blessings and many amazing opportunities – blessings & opportunities far beyond anything I deserve. Indeed, most of my life these past 26 years have been lived in “the bonus round.”
And so, here I sit on January 2, 2013, wondering what the New Year will hold for me, for my family or for our ministry ventures & opportunities? The simple ‘matter-of-fact’ is, that I don’t know… however, there is ONE who does, and HE has promised to work all these things together for His glory and for my good as I love Him and are called according to His purposes & plans. Consequently, my prayer for 2013 is quite a simple one: “Lead the way, Lord! I am ready, I am willing and I am committed to follow You wherever, whenever, however or why-ever. Amen!”
I leave you with the words of the Psalmist, as they provide a perfect ‘frame’ for my musings: “Lord, make me to know mine end, and the measure of my days, what it is; that I may know how frail I am. Behold, Thou hast made my days as an handbreadth (compared to eternity); and mine age is as nothing before Thee. Verily, every man – at his best state – is altogether vanity (apart from Thee)“. Selah. (Psalm 39:4-5, free translation)